'It's been torture': A tearful Tulisa breaks down on TV as she opens up about sex tape hell
08:38 GMT, 27 April 2012
She was rocked when a sex tape featuring herself was leaked online earlier this year.
And she's so far put on a brave face, even addressing her fans in an online video to admit it was her in the six-minute clip.
But now Tulisa Contostavlos has opened up about the ordeal and broken down on TV as she emotionally revealed: 'It's been torture'.
Tears: Tulisa broke down while recording an interview with Alan Carr for his TV show as she opened up about the 'torture' she's been through since her sex tape leak
The N-Dubz star spoke out as she recorded an interview with funnyman Alan Carr and revealed she feared the whole country would think badly of her.
She told him as she held back tears: 'I thought: ‘The whole of the UK thinks I’m a sl**per.'
It's the first time the singer has appeared vulnerable as she admitted it had caused her to fear for her career and that her reputation would be ruined.
Tulisa also revealed she was warned of a sex tape just as she landed her coveted role as a judge on The X Factor last year and feared she would get the sack if it came out.
Tulisa, 23, told Carr: 'It’s been torture for about 8 months. I found out just before I started filming X Factor.
'So every day during X Factor I was absolutely sh**ting myself because I didn’t want anything like that out there.'
But she managed to get through the show and even complete the series triumphant as her act Little Mix picked up the trophy in December.
The raunchy footage was released last month and featured the singer performing a sex act on her ex-boyfriend Justin Edwards, aka MC Ultra.
She spoke out soon after the tape was made public, despite being warned not too.
Lost some of that famous ambition During a recent video interview Tulisa Contostavlos admitted that she would be thrilled of her forthcoming album reaches number five
And she admitted to Carr that she wanted to let her fans know that it had been with an ex-boyfriend rather than 'some randomer' she could have met backstage.
The tearful singer, who downed four vodka red bulls during the TV interview, to be aired tonight, has even dismissed the furor around the video, insisting she would 'hardly call it a sex tape'.
She added: 'Number one, because there was no sex involved in it. Number two, a 19-year-old who’s just starting to learn to give blow-jobs and her boyfriend pulls out a video camera doesn’t really class as a sex tape.'
Contostavlos has since launched legal action against Edwards, who has vehemently denied he was behind leaking the video.
But in her candid chat with Carr she laughed off his claims, and added: 'Yeah, he didn’t – my a**e crack! He’s a t**t.'
Hard at work: Tulisa says that she's especially enjoyed working with British writers and producers
The TV judge has since concentrated on her music career to take her mind off the trauma.
She's hardly known for being short of ambition.
So Tulisa's latest comments about her forthcoming solo album may come as a surprise.
Miss Contostavlos has revealed in a new interview that she would find it 'amazing' if the record just made it to top five.
Speaking to SB.TV during a behind the scenes video during recording sessions, she said: 'I don't know what to say when people say “what are your expectations for it”- I'm happy if it got to top five,
that would be amazing.'
'That's all I've been focusing on for the last few months. I've been back and forth from the states'
She stressed the importance of British talent, adding: 'It's really good to be working with some UK writers and producers.'
Something for everyone: Tulisa says she's including Ibiza pop, dance, R&B- UK R&B, Uk hip hop, dubstep, ballads, drum and base, and straight pop music on the record
'The sound for the album is pretty mixed-up. We've mixing everything from Ibiza pop, dance, R&B- UK R&B, Uk hip hop, even a bit of dubstep in there, ballads, bit of drum and base, straight pop music.'
'The feedback has been really good for the first single [Young].'
Tulisa also spoke about her new album during a recent video interview with MSN.
Individual sound: Tulisa says that her album is very different from any N-Dubz music
She said: 'It's very different from any N-Dubz stuff. I knew that with my new stuff I wanted to show off my vocals a bit more, as I have write a strong vocal range. I wanted to keep the urban twang, which is in there, and represent a bit of the music which I listen to.'
Describing her favourite music, she said: 'As everyone knows I am a bit of a party animal- Ibiza baby! Old-school Ibiza vibe.'
Asked whether Young was made in response to recent tabloid attention, Tulisa answered: 'Young was recorded five months ago.So that was a stroke of luck actually! Really that [the supposition] is the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard.'
Knows what she likes: Self-confessed party lover Tulisa is partial to an 'Ibiza' sound
Showing what she's made off: Tulisa is hoping to show off more of her impressive vocal range on the new album
'I'd like to settle and have a family and get married when I'm like 30.'
'I definitely would like to run my own businesses by the time I'm 27 maybe, and then come away from the spotlight.'
This makes sense considering Tulisa told Choice FM recently that the media attention surrounding her getting 'intense.'
Planning ahead: Tulisa hopes to be running her own business by the time she's 27, and have a family by the time she's 30
'There were times when I could enjoy the buzz and the hype of it,' she said. 'I just let it go over my head. But now it's just all the time and I am at the point where I'm a bit fed up with it.'
The view is at odds however with the former N-Dubz star's comments to the Guardian last week, saying she aims to be 'a global superstar'.
She joked that she wanted to: 'Become so successful that if I wanna fart on a track, I can, and it will sell.'
Gets overwhelming: despite relishing her fame, Tulisa has admitted that the attention can get a little much sometimes
'I want to become a global superstar, I want to become successful enough that I can retire tomorrow in complete comfort,' she added.
'I've made my stamp on the earth, my name will go down in history, and if I never want to work again, I don't have to.'
Tulisa has invited yet more attention by signing up to another season of the X Factor, guaranteeing that her name will be in headlines for the rest of the year.
Tulisa's interview with Alan Carr will air on Channel 4 at 10pm on Friday night.
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