'The way I'm going, I'm not going to live for too much longer': Why TV's 650lb Virgin – who lost 400lbs and found love – is morbidly obese once more
15:03 GMT, 7 June 2012
As the star of 2009 TLC show The 650lb Virgin, David Smith's transformation to handsome personal trainer – with a doting girlfriend – made headlines.
But in a sad turn of events, the 35-year-old, from Phoenix, Arizona revealed today that he is once again morbidly obese, having re-gained over 250 of the 400lbs he lost.
In an interview this morning, he admitted that by putting on weight at this rate, his life was at risk.
He told the Today show: 'I've gained more than 250lbs in two years, and with all that extra weight so
quickly added to my body, I don't know how I'm still living right
now… The way I'm going, I'm not going to live for too much longer.'
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Unrecognisable: David Smith was slim and healthy after dropping 400lbs three years ago (left), but today (right) he is heavily overweight once more, having regained over 250lbs in two years
Morbidly obese: David now looks almost as he did in 2003 (pictured), before his weight-loss journey was filmed for a TLC documentary titled The 650lb Virgin
He added that he could already feel his health deteriorating.
'You know when your body's making a
turn for the worse,' he said. 'I felt it before when I was 650lbs, and
I'm feeling it again at 500.'
David revealed that his slide back into an unhealthy lifestyle was because he could not come to terms with this newly-slim self, and though he had been outwardly
thriving, he was struggling within.
'I wasn't doing too well. I looked really good on the outside, but inside I was a terrible mess,' he said.
Difficult journey: David struggled with the multiple surgeries that had failed to entirely remove the excess skin on his body, leaving him scarred and disappointed with his appearance
Struggle: David's arms looked toned, but the scar tissue and folds of skin were still visible at his midriff
'All my life I was this monster in my head and all of a sudden, to be
this good looking guy, it blew my mind away. I didn't know how to deal
He was also troubled by the multiple surgeries that had failed to entirely remove the excess skin on his body, leaving him scarred
and disappointed with his appearance.
'It was tough. A lot of people were counting on me to be inspiring, and I didn't want to let anybody down, but I just felt so bad. I didn't know how to cope'
David turned to alcohol and drugs for a brief time, but eventually found solace in food, the old demon that had caused his weight to spiral out of control the first time.
'I'd eat in my car before I'd get home, or if everybody was out I'd eat
something really quick then throw it away before they'd come home,' he admitted.
'It was tough. A lot of people were counting on me to be inspiring, and I
didn't want to let anybody down, but I just felt so bad. I didn't know
how to cope.'
The side-effects of his ballooning
weight were multiple. Embarrassed by his failure to keep in shape, David
became withdrawn. He lost his job, and his friendship with his own
trainer suffered. Terrified that he would also lose girlfriend Megan, he
admitted that he even contemplated suicide.
Emotional: He breaks down in tears as he opens up about his girlfriend, Megan, who has stood by him
Unwavering support: Megan has now inspired her boyfriend to resume a healthy lifestyle again
Breaking down as he spoke of his girlfriend, he said: 'Her support means the world to me. I love her so much, and I know I put
her through a lot. She's stayed by my side through everything.'
But Megan insists she is going nowhere, and has even inspired her boyfriend to start hitting the gym once more to try and lose the weight.
She told the show: 'He's really finally ready for it this time, of course I'm going to
be there. This is the moment I've been waiting for since he started
gaining. For him to really want to be healthy again.'
David, under no illusions about the challenge ahead, agrees that the time is right to start again.
'As much as you've worked on the outside, you have to work on the inside,' he explained. 'And if your foundation isn't built up, you're just going to crumble
down. And unfortunately I fell down, but I know I can climb back up.'
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