'I’d never condone it… but I wasn't beaten black and blue': Natalie Cassidy on her decision to take violent ex Adam Cottrell back
She admits she was left 'humiliated' by ex fianc Adam Cottrell when he hit her during a violent argument last year.
But now Natalie Cassidy, 28, has spoken about the reasons behind her reconciliation with Cottrell.
The former Celebrity Big Brother contestant said she decided to give things another go after Cottrell decided to seek help for his addiction to alcohol.
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'I wasn't beaten black and blue': Natalie Cassidy spoke about the reasons behind her decision to take back her ex fianc Adam Cottrell on This Morning today
She said: 'Adam and drink didn’t mix from the beginning. It did change and it got worse I was permanently on edge for him to have one drink – I put pressure on him.
As they were: Natalie with Cottrell back in July 2010
'Many people who have partners they don’t like as much when they have a drink.'
Natalie, who has a 17-month-old daughter Eliza with Cottrell, also revealed the moment she had decided to end the relationship.
She told Phillip Schofield and Emma Willis on This Morning today: 'Arguments weren’t verbal anymore they became physical. We had an argument he took a slipper and hit me. I’m a strong person but I was humiliated.
stayed because it takes a while you feel embarrassed you don’t what to
tell your family members straight away.
'But I opened up to friends and
family and I was strong enough to get a restraining order, which is hard
to do against the father of your child.'
But it was when Natalie allowed Cottrell to see their daughter Eliza that she decided to drop the restraining order against him, and slowly rediscovered her feelings for him.
And one incident in particular led to Natalie realising how deeply she felt for her former fianc.
She said: 'One Friday, Something awful happened – he disappeared, his phone was switched off and what’s he doing He’s drunk.
Spring style: Natalie wore a patterned navy dress with T-bar heels as she posed up outside the ITV studios following her appearance on the show
Good spirits: Natalie said that along as Adam sticks to not drinking, things between them will be fine
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'He was found 36 hours later drunk in an
old lady's garden. It was a frightening relapse. He had stopped drinking and
thought he could do it on his own – but he can't.
'After that incident he
called me and something turned in my brain and I realised he needs help.
'I’d never condone it… but I wasn’t beaten black and blue. Life is amazing without the constant fear in our lives.'
But while Natalie has given Cottrell, 32, another chance, she insists that if he fell off the wagon again, it would be an issue.
She said: 'If anything violent were to happen again
it would absolutely be it if he went out and had a drink again I would
'I know 100 per cent that if it carries on and he continues
doing what he’s doing then I know we’re going to be very happy.'
VIDEO: Natalie Cassidy opens up on her decision to get back with Adam Cottrell
Watch the full interview here