'It was the worst moment of my life': The Apprentice's Laura Hogg reveals father of her child was murdered while she was filming the show
00:46 GMT, 11 May 2012
She may have not impressed Lord Alan Sugar with her selling on the latest task, but Laura Hogg has revealed a devastating secret that may have affected her performance on The Apprentice.
The 28-year-old Scottish businesswoman has admitted that while filming the BBC reality show late last year, she was told that the father of her four-year-old son had been murdered.
Laura – who was the eighth contestant to be fired by Lord Sugar – was no longer with Chris Lindsay but explained that the shocking news was still 'the worst moment' of her life.
Secret heartbreak: Laura Hogg found out that the father of her child had been murdered while she was filming The Apprentice
Speaking to The Sun, the bridal boutique owner went on to explain how she was pulled aside in October 2011 while the group's were filming one of their first tasks in London.
After waiting an hour to find a quiet hotel room to break the devastating news to Laura, TV aides finally explained that Chris had been beaten up while working in the Costa Del Sol and died in hospital.
'I was in an absolute state of shock,' Laura told the newspaper. 'I just wanted someone to pinch me. I couldn't speak. It was like something from a film.'
Despite no longer being with Chris, and admitting that he didn't have relationship with their son Reece, Laura still said it 'hurts like mad.'
Details of the murder still remain unknown as the sales worker had separated from his colleagues and was later found by the side of the road 'badly beaten up and unconscious,' and died five days later.
Single parent: the Scottish TV star admitted that she was no longer with Chris Lindsay who was the father of her son Reece, pictured here in a recent Twitter photo
After being told the sad news, Laura faced the difficult decision of whether to return to Scotland to attend the funeral even though she wasn't speaking to Chris' family.
'If Chris had been involved in Reece’s life I’d have been home in a flash. But I thought me going back wasn’t going to influence the situation,' Laura explained.
'I wanted my little boy to have a dad but it became apparent after Reece was born that we were never going to have a happy family.'
The couple were only together for two years but Laura revealed that their relationship began to break down while she was still pregnant.
Coping with the pain: Laura said she will never know if the devastating news 'affected her performance' on the BBC show
Laura – who has been with her current boyfriend Ali for four years now – added that it was the 'hardest decision' of her life to walk away from her relationship with Chris but said she 'had no choice.'
In the end, the reality TV star opted to stay in London and didn't attend the funeral because winning the show could have transformed her life.
At first, the blonde didn't want to reveal her anguish to her fellow contestants but the following week she could no longer hold it in and broke down in tears.
On Wednesday night, viewers watched as Lord Sugar pointed the finger at Laura following an art dealing task and the Scottish star couldn't hide her emotions as she left the boardroom.
'I will never know if what had happened affected my performance. I was never going to play that card. But I was devastated when I was fired. I was in the show to go all the way.'