'Posing topless as a teenager drove me to nervous breakdown,' reveals Kate Moss
09:08 GMT, 1 November 2012
Kate Moss has told how she suffered a nervous breakdown as a teenager and was in tears after being pushed into posing topless.
The model, who rarely gives interviews, spoke about the pressures she was under and how for many years she had no-one 'to take care of' her, apart from the spell she spent dating Hollywood star Johnny Depp.
She told Vanity Fair magazine how uncomfortable she felt while working on a shoot for style magazine The Face with photographer Corinne Day which helped to propel her to fame.
Vulnerable: Kate Moss has revealed she suffered a nervous breakdown after being asked to straddle Marky Mark in the infamous Calvin Klein campaign
'I see a 16-year-old now, and to ask her to take her clothes off would feel really weird,' she said.
'But they were like “If you don't do
it, then we're not going to book you again”. So I'd lock myself in the
toilet and cry and then come out and do it. I never felt very
comfortable about it.'
Anxiety: Kate, seen here aged just 17, said she couldn't get out of bed for two weeks after the shoot
Moss, 38, said she was not happy with
her 'boobs' and even made the only man on the photoshoot turn his back
while the pictures were being taken.
The supermodel claimed her mental health suffered while working on a campaign for Calvin Klein in the early 1990s.
'I had a nervous breakdown when I was 17 or 18, when I had to go and work with Marky Mark and Herb Ritts,' Moss said.
'It didn't feel like me at all. I
felt really bad about straddling this buff guy. I didn't like it. I
couldn't get out of bed for two weeks. I thought I was going to die.'
She went on: 'It was just anxiety. Nobody takes care of you mentally. There's a massive pressure to do what you have to do.'
Moss said Depp came to her aid during
their four-year relationship, but following their split she said there
was 'years and years of crying'.
She told interviewer James Fox in Vanity Fair's December issue: 'I really lost that gauge of somebody I could trust.'
Now Kate has few qualms string-vest to cover her modesty, heavy eyeliner and her hair
tousled, Miss Moss pouts in the manner of former French model and
actress Brigitte Bardot.
The interview is accompanied by a striking image of Kate, 38, in a series of photographs for the magazine's December issue.
Mother daughter duo: Kate was seen with her daughter on a visit to a farm house last weekend
Kate, who has a nine-year-old daughter Grace from a previous
relationship, is now happily married to Jamie Hince, guitarist with
Indie rock band The Kills.
pair now live in London’s leafy Highgate area and Miss Moss has
reportedly cut back on her partying in order to try for a baby with Mr
In her new autobiography Kate Moss distances herself from the term 'heroin chic, saying she never touched the drug.
The nickname was given to Kate in 1993 and sparked a trend where young women were desperate to copy her look.
However despite being branded as one, Kate Moss says she was never a user and was given the nickname because people thought she looked like she took heroin.
'If I was anorexic or if I was on heroin, maybe I would have been a bit more “Oh dear!”,' she told the Daily Mirror.
'But I wasn't any of those things that they were painting me to be.
A friend of Miss Moss – who is known
for her wild antics and former drug-use – previously said : 'Kate has
made no secret among her circle that she’d love to have a baby with
'There’s no doubt in my mind that the prospect of another child is a massive motivation for her to clean up her act.
'She eats like a horse now, too, while back in her catwalk days she could easily “forget” to have lunch and dinner.
'She’s still Kate, but she’s somehow different. It’s a change for the better, if you ask me.'
Vanity Fair's December 2012 issue is on sale from Friday.