'I love to be scared and out of control': How Kristen Stewart tempted fate in interview before affair scandal
20:09 GMT, 24 August 2012
Kristen Stewart revealed she loves feeling 'scared' and 'out of control' during an telling interview with a magazine before her affair scandal.
The 22-year-old actress has seen her four-year relationship with boyfriend Robert Pattinson fall apart after she cheated on him with her married Snow White and the Huntsman director Rupert Sanders.
Showing the strain: Kristen Stewart displayed an even slimmer frame as she stepped out in Los Angeles on Monday
Pointed Kristen teamed her T-shirt and jeans with a baseball cap and backpack owned by estranged boyfriend Robert Pattinson
Talking about her career, Kristen
told Little White Lies magazine: 'I just really am trying, trying, all
the time. But I like to be scared. I love to suddenly feel out of
'Actors walk around wearing these
little tool-belts of acting skills. And I just don't find that
interesting to watch. I never want to see someone who clearly can cry at
the drop of a hat. That's so uninteresting.
'And so many actresses are so f**king
crazy. They're emotional wrecks, so they pretend to be these
characters. But the emotions aren't coming from the right place. Do you
know what I mean'
The Twilight Saga star also revealed
how when she's 'falls to pieces' when she's not filming. (Her fling with
Sanders, 41, took place in July while she was between projects)
Reference: Kristen wore Pattinson's Baltimore Orioles cap which he used to frequently wear
THAT photo: Kristen issued a statement apologising for her 'momentary indiscretion' after the pictures of her and Sanders first emerged
She explained: 'I'm like, bursting. I
should be working. I don't want to take a break. It's funny, on set, I
don't have to go to the bathroom, I don't have anything wrong, I'm
perfectly fine, so through-and-through. I'm not hungry. I'm literally
not even in my own body. They wrap and they send me back to my trailer
and I f**king fall to pieces. I suddenly realise that I've had to pee
for six hours. And I'm starving.'
Kristen has been laying low since the
scandal broke more than four weeks ago, but she finally surfaced in Los
Angeles on Monday.
Estranged: While Kristen has been keeping a low profile, Pattinson has been doing the rounds promoting his new movie Cosmopolis
She showed the strain of the difficult
past few weeks as she displayed her even slimmer frame in a cropped
white T-shirt and rolled up skinny jeans.
However, Kristen, perhaps unwittingly,
still managed to refer back to her infidelity by teaming her outfit
with a Baltimore Orioles cap and a backpack – both of which belong to
her estranged boyfriend Robert Pattinson.
She also wore a gold ring which was given to her by Pattinson.
And sources close to the Twilight
actor have revealed he is less than impressed with Kristen's outfit
choice after seeing the photographs.
Smiling through the controversy: Pattinson appeared in good spirits as he joked around with Kimmel on the show
Love nest no more: Pattinson also confirmed he is 'homeless' after moving out of the $7million LA home he had shared with Kristen