'It's a horrible reminder when Dolly wakes up… that I'm all alone': Chantelle Houghton weeps on live TV saying she is 'in hell'
14:46 GMT, 26 October 2012
She's been through a particularly turbulent time of late after splitting from fiance Alex Reid following a midnight showdown at their Essex home.
But Chantelle Houghton showed the true strain of the last few weeks as she broke down in tears live on television on Friday morning.
Speaking to presenters Ruth Langsford and Eamonn Holmes as she appeared on ITV1's This Morning, the 29-year-old reality star admitted she is going through 'hell' as she struggles to cope in the wake of the split.
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Emotional: Chantelle Houghton broke down in tears as she appeared on ITV1's This Morning on Friday
Facing life as a single mother to the couple's four-month-old baby Dolly, Chantelle explained every night is a 'horrible reminder' of the fact that she will have to bring up her daughter alone.
Sobbing into a tissue, she said: 'It's like the saying, I've been to hell and back and I feel like I'm in that hell now… I know I can see the future and I will be happy again, but right now, things are really tough.
'I never appreciated what it was like to be a single mum before, and I'm in a very fortunate situation that I don't have money worries. But it's hard going through a break-up and being mum as well – it's really tough.
Single mother: Chantelle explained she has been 'going through hell' as she faces bringing up baby daughter Dolly alone following her split from Alex Reid
'Obviously during the night its like a horrible reminder when she wakes up. And I am there on my own but you know, its my life and I've just got to get on with it.'
Vowing there was 'no way back' for her and the 38-year-old cage fighter, Chantelle explained police being called to the couple's Essex home was the 'final nail in the coffin' for their relationship, as Alex had become a 'different person' to the one she had first met.
She said: 'There's things about Alex that I didn't know when I first met him, and he wasn't the person I met. He didn't turn into the person that I met in the beginning. He was a different person.
Heartbroken: Chantelle sobbed into a tissue as she explained Alex became a 'different person' to the man she had agreed to marry
'I was really happy and it was everything I wanted, especially when I found out that I was pregnant. We were over the moon and we were so happy and then stuff happened and it just went from bad to worse.
'I tried to stick at it because I always wanted a mum and dad and a family. But there came a point where it had to end.'
Despite the couple's tumultuous relationship having come to an end, Chantelle still wants Alex to have a relationship with their four-month-old daughter Dolly.
Distressed: The 29-year-old reality star admitted every night is a 'horrible reminder' of the fact that she will have to bring up her daughter alone
Confiding in Eamonn and Ruth as they chatted on the This Morning sofa, she explained: 'Alex is always welcome to see her and I'm desperate for them to have a relationship.
'Whatever happened between me and Alex, that's between me and him. We're sorting out arrangements for him to come twice a week to see her.'
Following her split, Chantelle admitted meeting a new man is the last thing on her mind, and she is just keen to concentrate on raising her daughter for the time being.
Telling all: Chantelle opened up to hosts Ruth Langsford and Eamonn Holmes on This Morning
Moving on: Chantelle explained her daughter is her priority and she has 'no interest' in meeting another man for the foreseeable future
She added: 'I've got Dolly to look after now and concentrate on. I don't know what the future holds. But I'm going to carry on supporting my daughter and moving forward.
'I've got no interest in meeting anyone, that's the last thing I want to do. I just want to sort this mess out.'
Despite her emotional appearance, Chantelle looked as though she was making steps back to becoming her usually glam self – looking far more polished than she has done in previous weeks.
Putting on a brave face: Chantelle attempted to raise a smile as she left ITV's studios in central London
With her blonde curls tumbling around her shoulders, the star looked slim and stylish in a cream sheer blouse, black leather-look leggings and matching riding boots.
Alex proposed to Chantelle live on Irish television in October 2011, before the couple announced they were expecting their first child the following month.
Chantelle welcomed baby Dolly into the world on June 17, and the pair finally called time on their tumultuous relationship in September.
In happier times: Chantelle and Alex got engaged live on television in October 2011, before announcing they were expecting their first child the following month
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