Abandoned as a baby and forced to pole dance to make ends meet as a single mother, TOWIE star Chloe Sims reveals the sad life story behind that megawatt smile in her new autobiography
14:42 GMT, 15 November 2012
TOWIE star Chloe Sims is known for her pneumatic figure, blinding smile and sweet girl next door nature.
The ex-promotions girl shot to fame as part of the hit Essex-based realty show, and to its 1 million viewers the pretty brunette now seems to have it all.
This week the 31-year-old celebrated the launch of her autobiography The Only Way Is Up with a typically OTT bash at a Loughton nightclub.
Glamour girl Chloe Sims' brutally honest autobiography The Only Way Is Up is released this week
Dressed in a plunging
frock and plastered in make-up the mother-of-one arrived with a handsome
DJ on her arm and spent the evening supping champagne, posing for the
paparazzi and almost falling out of her dress – exactly the kind of
behaviour you would expect from a TOWIE star out on the town.
But as her fellow TOWIE cast members release books filled with fluffy fashion tips or
sausage plait recipes, this glamour girl's turbulent life story is actually one worth telling.
In the book she talks for the first time
about the depths she sunk to as she tried to make ends meet as a
single mum as well as her ongoing battle with body image, and how
desperately sad she still is at being abandoned by her mother when she
was a child.
At the launch the model said: 'I've been really honest, as honest as I
can be, I was really nervous about it coming out, but so far, touch
wood, it's not been a terrible reaction, it's been quite positive.'
Chloe was dressed to kill as she partied with her TOWIE cast members at her book launch in Loughton, Essex
In advance of the publication of her first book the model shared some of her more dramatic life stories with Reveal magazine.
Talking about the mother that walked out on her when she was just three-years-old Chloe said: 'I have so few memories of mum that I can barely even remember her face. I'll never know why she left and we've not seen her since. What sort of woman just walks out and leaves her child
'I don't think what happened that day will ever sink in. Why mum left me, I'll never know. As far as I'm concerned I will never meet her.'
Chloe's cosmetic enhancements are
well-documented but she maintains that it wasn't until after she gave
birth to daughter Mady eight years ago that she went under the knife.
Becoming a mother also led to another body obsession: being as thin as possible.
Gruelling daily workouts and not eating was the norm as Chloe strived for a size 6 figure.
She says: 'I eventually got to the point where I couldn't stand having anything in my belly so I would make myself sick.
always been able to stick my fingers down my throat if I was too drunk
on a night out so I knew I could do it. I started drinking loads of
water before I ate anything as that made it much easier to puke up
'I became good at hiding it but I was looking awful. I looked ill – I was really skinny with big, bulging eyes.'
Chloe's mother walked out when she was three-years-old and growing up without her has had a huge impact on the Essex girl, who hardly remembers the face of the woman who abandoned her
Chloe pictured with her father aged three. When he found out that Chloe had been a pole dancer he said: 'If that's the only thing you've done that you regret in your life then you shouldn't be too worried about it'
As well as battling bulimia the promotions girl was also dealing with the dread of being stony broke.
At one stage she resorted to selling her body as the bills were cut off and she worried about how to feed her young daughter.
She says: 'I needed to support my little girl and I felt I had no choice. I was pole dancing. I did what I had to do for my daughter and I hated every minute of it.
'It was the lowest point of my life: I was completely skint, my landlord was threatening to kick us out and we had nowhere to go.
'We had no hot water so I would boil a kettle to wash Mady. Then I'd put two pairs of pyjamas on to keep her warm at night. My plans to be a good mum had failed, I had hit rock bottom.'
Read the full interview with Chloe in this week's Reveal magazine
Chloe Sims: The Only Way Is Up is out now
Read the full interview with Chloe in this week's Reveal magazine.
The Only Way Is Up by Chloe Sims is published by John Blake at 14.99